Random thoughts this morning...
I haven't performed in months. I haven't REALLY performed in years when I think about it. Yes, I have sung in class and in rehearsals to help my kids learn. But somewhere down the line I simply... stopped. I have been peeling back the layers of the onion to try and figure out where, when, and how this became a problem. And it is a problem.
I grew up singing. I thought for sure I was going to be the next Donna Summers when I was a kid. When I got older... it was Anita Baker or Nancy Wilson when I fell in love with jazz. But today... today I will be singing at a graduation. Not only will I be singing again, but I am going for the gusto and I am actually singing a song that my Aunt Janice Carr was known VERY WELL for singing. I will sing it EACTLY the way she sang it, because I haven't heard anyone sing it like her. Her version was simply put: REMARKABLE!
I believe that our family speaks house from the beyond. I believe that there are people in your life that speak on behalf of God even when you're not so in tune with what is being said. I have had so many people tell me "you need to sing more." Whatever it is that has held me back- I think it is about to leave.
Random thoughts: I need to believe and tell myself... I CAN do this... I am enough...and I have something to say. Period. I'm sure Auntie will help me sing her song today...only it will be my voice.
Make it real good!
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